O.m.g
22DAYS
Im not really sure where the time is going but it is going so fast. I cant believe I only have 22days.
I have just remember that I am going to fly from Jamaica to Miami for my birthday weekend. The whole purpose of the trip is to shop!. I really do not want the shopping trip to be like last year when I, a girl who LOVES shopping, clothes and fashion, wanted to go home. I really did not want to shop I was kind of walked around feeling really out of place and fat. I just thought, there is no point. nothing will fit well, I just look fat and ugly.
so this year I really want it to be different. for anyone who thinks imp a silly insecure girls who just want to please her boyfriend, please think again. I just want to feel happy about my body so I can try things on and not feel silly.
Its not like im trying to loose an unrealistic amount of weight, I think and hope it can be done
I was thinking about what is motivating me. here is my list.
1 IM GOING TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND WHO I HAVE NOT SEEN IN 6 WEEKS
2 IM GOING TO BE LAZING ABOUT ON THE BEACH
3 IM GOING TO SEE FRIENDS IN JAMAICA WHO I HAVE ALSO NOT SEEN IN 6 WEEK. I DON’T WANT THEM TO THINK I HAVE OUT ON WEIGHT
4 IM GOING TO BE WORKING IN THE SUMMER AND I DON’T WANT MY EMPLOYER TO THINK IM FAT A LAZY
5 I WANT TO LOOK PRETTY. I KNOW IT SOUNDS SHALLOW BUT WORKING IN THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY ESPECIALLY IN JAMAICA INVOLVES LOOKING GOOD.
6 I AM GOING SHOPPING IN MIAMI FOR MY BIRTHDAY. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO BUY CLOTHES THAT FIT ME
7 I REALLY DON’T WANT TO GET ON THAT SCALES ON SUNDAY AND BE DISAPPOINTED.
8 IM GOING TO MEET LOADS OF MY BOYFRIENDS FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND I WANT THEM TO THINK POSITIVELY OF ME
that it really. I will add more if I think of them
SO what have I had today
Breakfast
banana, peach nectarine, grape and cranberry smoothie
Lunch
banana apple grape peach plumb and summer fruit smoothie.
Ok so i guess the smoothie thing did not really work out for me. by late after noon i was starving. I think i had a bit of a bindge and at way to much
I had...
2 packs of nick nacks
i small cake, size of my palm
pasta/noodle soup with beacon bits
a bit of my brothers burger!
My brother had the nices big fat m and s burgers with massive bread rolls for dinner. I am starting to miss my old food. I could kill for a massive dominos or a big cheesey bowl of pasta. I must admit i must remind myself when i ate 2 pizzas and a garlic bread pizza all to my self. i had most of it in one sitting then the reast was for breakfast the next day. Lets be honest, i have had my fair share of junk to last me a lifetime!
tomorow brings a new challange. I am bk at work. I work in a coffee shop. I am always tempted by all the nice cakes and coffee which may i add are free. its a curse i tell you.i end up having a coffee cake every couple of hours. This is the plan....
1 TAKE A MASSIVE BOTTLE OF WATER WITH ME. (2LTR). this means i wont have to drink coffee when i fancy a drink. i can just take a sip or water, yay fun)
2 take a few pepermint tea bags. I can have it in the nice fancy china cups so i feel like i am treating myself
3 make sure i have quite a big breakfast before i go. this way i wont have a dip in energy levels and go running to the white choc chip cookies or the toffie muffins
Thats it really. I am doing a short shift. 12-6 (im a student, thats why i have time to blog and make my diet my main focus)
Its good that the shift is so short as i dont have to worry about messing up at lunch time.
My boyfriend just rang me. He said he just called to tell me i am his world ,im the most beautiful girl he has ever laid eyes on and he loves me very much!! ahh how sweet i love him so much! (i know..well trained) no just kidding, he does not do that very often. i guess it makes you appriciate it more when it happens..
Now im in the best mood.
yay xx
