hey. I hope u are all cool. Im really trying to blog more often but things are so crazy at the mo. i have so much uni work to do, m family is falling apart and im having loads of arguments with m boyfriend. I feel like m diet is the only thing i have control of in my life and i piss myself of because i dnt feel like i even control that as well as i should. people say im to hard on myself, but i hate m body, i hate that my life i such a mess and i hate that nothing goes the way i want it to. I really dont know why i cant stick to anything. i really dont. i need medical help lol. not as in pills, as in psychological. maybe i have some deep routed childhood trauma that im to scared to address. or maybe im just fat and lazy. i dont know. any ideas....
anyway.
i will blog tomorrow
when im in a better state of mind
much love.
